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Thursday, April 3, 2008

Every Day gets harder



Her clothing hangs in my closet. Just a few pieces, the dress she wore at our wedding along with her shoes. A dress she wore at the last wedding we attended together. The wedding was in October she died in December. It was a dress I helped her pick out and a few other articles that she wore on our last cruise in November. Little did we know that it would be the last thing we do together.

Now I sit remembering the good old days but every memory hurts and they all come with tears. All new memories get tied to Brenda. What ever I do she should will be a part of. When I go out with two other couples She should be there. I feel that I am the odd man, the fifth chair.

We could all be talking and joking but I always seem to bring everyone down by talking about Brenda and how I miss her. I try not to but it seems to always end that way.
Brenda would have everyone laughing. We were George burns and Gracie Adams. I miss her laughter and her humor but most of all I miss her love. It was tender along with being intense. I always looked forward in getting in bed with her now I can’t go into the room to sleep.

Every day gets harder to cope with the loss of Brenda but in her death I have learned that she was deeper that I knew. She would give advise to our daughter on raising her children. The reason it’s funny is that Brenda had no children of her own but our daughter told me that she was right on. She help out a lot of people in many ways. What hurts me the most is that our grandchildren will not have Brenda’s wisdom to learn from. She loved them with all her hart and soul and I hope they don’t forget her. Brenda was truly one of a kind.
It was my mother’s birthday and Brenda was not there to make us laugh. All though we all together we all felt Brenda missing absence. I couldn’t be happy for my Mother because the hurt was to great. I feel that it was selfish of me but I just can’t pretend. Brenda is gone and my life will never be the same.


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother , fantastic Grandmother and one hell of a woman you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.


Help me keep Brenda’s name alive
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz


Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.


St Jude



Stem Cell Research


Michael J Fox


Wednesday, April 2, 2008

If Only?


I walk the nights from room to room. As I walk out of the room that I sleep in, (her old office), I found a card on a shelf. It read –
I love you in so many ways and for so many reasons…because you know me and understand me like no one else ever could… because you believe in my dreams and care about my feelings…because you make me laugh so hard and smile so often…because you have a way of bringing out the very best in me.
Herb
I love you
In so many ways, and for so many reason, but mostly because you’re my very best friend.

It was signed
I’ll miss you!
I love you
Love me

I don’t remember when she gave me this. Maybe she left it for me that day she went in for that minor surgery. Maybe she knew that she was going to die. She told my sister that she would see at her funeral Friday. She was buried on Friday a week later. I would of never of let her go. If only I would of listen maybe she would be alive today.
I miss you Babe, you were and will always be my soul. I will spend the rest of my life creating a fund to keep you name alive not just for the people who know you but also for everyone. You are a person that should be an example to the world.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name alive.
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you Herb A Krantz
Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp
St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD
Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox
http://www.michaeljfox.org/
Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Monday, March 31, 2008

Tears fall so easily (I miss you my Love)


I thought that writing about my beloved wife Brenda would help me get over her death.
It hasn’t and never will.
With my eyes open I see her face as she took her last breath. I remember looking at her as her color turned from flesh to yellow. I could see her spirit leave her body.
I knew seven days before they pronounced her death that she would not come back. She had closed her bright eyes for the last time 12/11/07 not 12/19/07.
As I drove her to her death I told her that she would be fine. She come out of her minor operation just fine but it still was the last time she would make people laugh.
The last time I would kiss her goodbye.
The last time I would see her eyes open.
It’s now three months later and the pain is growing day by day. The sleepless night are going into weary days. I have many friends and relatives around me. I talk with them and tell them my feelings but nothing seems to help. The pain and loss is to great. There will be no other like Brenda for the world or me. She was truly a work of art, my dream come true. She was a big part of many persons life and what I lived for.
I have a hole where there use to be hart.
Tears fall so easily. I could be out, sitting home or driving and they start.
My hands shake like I never before. I try to go out and be happy with whom I am with but my thoughts always go to Brenda.
I love my Daughter and grandkids but without Brenda nothing brings me joy. Everyday is the same, day after day.
I try to go back to work but I can’t. I just don’t have the drive I had before. So I look for something different to do but that’s no working so well. I feel that my life is on hold and will never go anywhere.
I miss you Brenda so much that I will never move on.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name aliveBelow are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name. Thank you Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia


St Jude



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox


Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Wishes of happiness..(Happy Birthday Ha!!)


One week later and my birthday is here.
Everyone greets me with wishes of happiness.
I don’t feel very happy as a matter of fact I would of liked to sleep the day away.
Maybe get drunk and not wake up till the day I die.
I can’t see me living without you for the rest of my life.
You were what I lived for.

My life, my everything.
My happiness was through you eyes.
You were bigger than life itself.
You were my soul.
The love of my life.

I roam the lonely halls every night.
I have to drink myself to sleep to rest every night.
I sit and look at your picture. Looking into your eyes.
Eyes that were so full of life now are dim.

I will never see your bright eyes again or hear your laugh.
If only you knew how you touched my life and others.
This spot you filled will never be taken by anyone.

This will be the last artical I write about my beloved wife Brenda for a while. I have said everything I can say about her and the love we knew.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds to in the name of Brenda G. Gomnick
Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Monday, March 10, 2008

My Bright Eyes



The days grow longer.
The nights grow emptier.
My heart grows sadder not for me but for our grandchildren.
I’m afraid they will forget you especially our 18 month old.
They will never hear your laughter or see you kind smiling face again.
You will no longer be there to give them their macaroni and cheese.
Change the 18-month-old diapers.
Be there when our 3-year old was toilet trained which you helped start.
All these things that the kids will miss.

The things that you could teach them.
The time you took to read to them on the couch.
The laughter you spread to all around you.

We will all miss your innocent humor.
The way you made everyone feel good about themselves

I will miss all this plus more.
The time we spent together alone, just laughing and fooling around.
I will miss every night, kissing and hugging you good night.
You sitting at the computer playing games while I would tickle you.
Looking in your bright eyes and seeing your perfect soul.
I will miss a lot in life.
My life will never be the same.
I will be a lonely soul who will wonder through life for as long as I live.


Love Herb


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Thursday, March 6, 2008

It was supposed to be a Happy Birthday Brenda


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Today was the day you were born instead you not here.
We were supposed to celebrate instead I am mourning your death.
March was the month of our birth now I will remember it for your death.
This was a day for laughter and gifts and looking forward to next year. All that has ended with your death.

There will be no more laughter.
No happiness.
No Hope.
Just sadness and despair.
Loneliness and want for the old days when you were here.

I will long for your laugh and the warmth of your arms around me.
I will never be able to look into your eyes again and see the warmth there.
Nothing will every be the same.
I miss so, the hurt unbearable.


Happy birthday my love where ever you are.


Love Herb


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm







Wednesday, March 5, 2008

bite-by-bite I'm losing you


Slowly, bite-by-bite the fiscal things are leaving.
I feel that I am losing you all over again.
But to move on I’m told this must happen.

All that that’s leaving can never take the memories of you away.
That’s all I have left. Sometimes it’s not enough and the hurt and loneliness becomes to over bearing.
For the rest of my life this is what I have to look forward to for no one will every replace you.
You were my dream come true and now that dream has ended.
My life once again will be lonely. This time I will never dream again.
Our love was once in a lifetime.
A love that will last through out time and eternity.

You were a special woman.
A woman like no other.
A woman that no other could live up to.

Little did you know how much you were love, not just by me but by everyone who knows you.
You were a unique person.
One of a kind.

You made everyone happy and feel good about themselves. That takes a special takes a special person.
You were special in many ways. I will morn you for the rest of my life.
I will love you for every.



Love Herb


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm