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Sunday, December 27, 2009

No happily every after



Once upon a time there was a young man who was happy go lucky. He lived life every day to the fullest. Then one day he met his love, dancing down the street. It didn't take long for them to fall madly in live and get married.

They both worked hard and played hard. He worked from early morning to late at night. They family had everything except their father-husband there with them. He was trying to make a living for them but as usual he didn't realize that they rather have him. He finally realized what his family wanted. They wanted him around more so he stepped down from his high paying position to a lesser position, a job to spend more time with his family. That position paid less and the family had to do with less. His wife didn't like that. She was use to not working and having anything she wanted.

After twenty years of marriage it finally caught up to them. The arguments when they were together became command place.

One day his daughter look up at him and asked," Why do you and mommy argue all the time, he answered, when we stop arguing it will be time to start worrying because then we won't care what happens to our family. As long as there was something to fight for the marriage would stay together he thought.

That day of reckoning came and after twenty years their family broke up. It was a very sad day for the kids but the parents knew it couldn't go on. That it was better that he left and maybe his wife and the kids would live a calmer life. As most families he became a weekend dad, but he called his kids every night. He wanted to let then know that he loved them very much.

He stay by himself working all day and most of the night in a business he started. He was getting very lonely and prayed to the God above that he would met someone that would totally love for what he was and no for what he can give her. For years he would go out with several different woman and have a meaningless relationships with them. He was never really happy and always was glad to be alone again.

Then one day he met this very charming lady. She had a glare in her eyes a smile in her voice. He knew that she was special when he met her but how special she really was, was a pleasant surprise. She was a unique person, someone who would make everyone who met her feel good to be in her presents. To be around her was to be in front of an angle that was here on earth to spread happiness and joy. Could it be that God had finally answered his prayers? She was way more than he had asked for. He found a meaningful relationship with her that grow into a love that was strong and every lasting. Everyone that met them both could see how very much in love they were. It was a love story that you read in a book or see in the movies. His family and hers fell in love with each other. It was like they were all made for each other. They married and lived very happily but only for a short time.

Once again his hart would be broken. His soul mate died suddenly and he was left along again to morn her death forever. There could be no one to take her place; she was tru
one of a kind. Once again God would take away the reason for living. When she was alive he had a purpose. Now there was nothing. What was sense of looking again, to fall in love, for it to be taken away? There will only be loneliness and despair there will be no happy every after for him.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Holidays of a lonely hart


The time of happiness and cheer are here again but it brings sadness and tears for me.
It brings memories of laughter and joy with my wife and myself who passed away two years ago today (Dec 11/2007).
As I think of those times of happiness I think how I can no longer hear her voice or see her face, when I close my eyes there just a darken space. This time of year will never be happy again.
My heart races and the sadness and despair gripe my soul as I realize that I will never see her, hold her, kiss her, tell her that I love her again.
You have changed my life my love and tough me well.
You shown me what true love can really be?
The tenderness of a touch and the love from the soul.
I prayed for a long time to have someone like you in my life and I was blessed but the time was to short.
The love we shared will stay within me till the day I die.
I hope I can share that kind of love with someone else before then. To have a love that is strong and from the soul would be a gift again. What man is that lucky to find it twice in a lifetime.
This is my prayer to you, whatever god there is above. Keep my family and friends safe. Let there be peace in my lifetime. If there is a hereafter watch over Brenda for me because she was my Angel who came down and took a broken man a made him whole.
To those that have a spouse or any lover. Let them know that you love them. Tell them ever morning and every night. Hug them as much as you can for you never know when it could be that last.