Brenda you will live forever

I feel like my life is nothing but bad movie with a sad ending. You know the kind that gives you something to hope for but take’s it away in the end. A movie that teases you with hope when there really is none.
All my life I had good things happen to me just to lose them. I said I would never let that happen to me again. Then I met Brenda and forgot the promise I made to myself. Maybe if I never meet her she would still be alive. It’s been five months and the hurt, loneliness and the anger is still there. As a matter of fact it grows ever day, stronger and stronger.
I look back upon my life, the three happiest times were, when my child was born, the day my daughter and I finally got back together and the day I married Brenda.
Everyday with Brenda in my life was a celebration of life itself. Now there is no life, no joy, no happiness and no celebration. Everyone hangs his or her heads in shock. A woman with the gift to make people smile and laugh. A person who makes everyone fell great about himself or herself. The world has lost a truly unique person. The mold was broken when she was born. Brenda you are gone from sight but never from mind.
I will live my life just to praise your name and memory. To my dieing day I will try and keep Brenda’s name alive, not only to her friends and family but to all on the net who read my articles.


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother, a woman of great stature, fantastic Grandmother. You are greatly missed already.
Rest in peace my bright eyes.

Help me keep Brenda’s name alive. Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name. Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa. http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp

St Jude http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD

Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

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Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Dame Right I'm Mad

Two people in my family said the saw Brenda in their dreams. I face every night with the same want, to see Brenda in my dreams. See her face; look in to her bright green eyes. Through those eyes see a soul of a true angle. To hold her for one last time and feel her warmth next to me. Look at her smile and hear her laugh. To say goodbye and let her go. For as they say if you really love someone or thing you must let them go. Until I do I will never be able to move forward and until I say goodbye I will never let go.
I truly wish I could believe that Brenda and I will meet up again someday. We only get one time around that we remember. There is no here after. We will be running to each other with outstretched arms and as we reach each other I will lift he in my arms and kiss her again. That’s bull, only in the movies. I can only believe in the here and know.
My life, belief in my religion and god died when Brenda died.
If sounds like I am mad it’s because I am.
I’m made that I’m here and Brenda isn’t. I was supposed to die first and after being in the hospital with a ripped aorta that fact even makes it more so.
I’m mad because I don’t remember if I kissed Brenda goodbye and told her that I loved her as I usually did.
I’m made because we go cheated out of all our years ahead of us.
I’m made because there are to many questions about her death still to be answered.
I’m made because I can’t move on with my life because Brenda’s death weights to heavy on my soul.
I used to make people laugh and smile. I can’t do that anymore. I lost that too. One thing I have learned when you love someone as much as I loved Brenda and you loose him or her your life changes. It changes drastically for the worst. You hart hurts with a pain that is deep within your soul.

My family just celebrated Passover. It’s a holiday of the Jews freedom from their oppressors. I feel that I am still a prisoner of my oppressor –Death. I really didn’t feel like going this year but I did but left early. I just can’t keep my feelings in for long. The days usually end with me crying as I drive home.
I made because Brenda wasn’t there this year.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name aliveBelow are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name. Thank you Herb A Krantz Children's Hospital of Philadelphia Chop Hospital Phila Pa. http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jspSt Jude http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRDStem Cell Research Michael J Fox http://www.michaeljfox.org/Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm


P.S. To Km Little B’s friend. I’m still writing and still alive not that I want to be. I love you for your support and I will always be just a phone call away if you need me.

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I have lost all hope in God

Many years ago I turned my face from you god. At that time I thought the punishment was tough enough the you handed to me. It was one that would last all my life.
I learned my religion diligently. I read many books and in general I practiced what they said. I believed that I was so wrong for all those years in not believing in you. There is a God and he walks with you if you walk with him.
Once again in my life I have lost all hope in G-D. It’s just something that people like to cling to when things go wrong. To me it’s all bull shit. I know the words and the history but I don’t believe.
I have been told that god has save me for a reason. In 2007 I was sick and supposed die. I have been saved 4 times and nothing great has happen yet. It’s all bull I guess I am just lucky.
I was given the answer to my prays just to have it torn away from me for no reason. It seem that the god that looks over me is an evil god. One who cares for no one that cares for him. He has his own agenda that has nothing to do in helping his children.
If it sounds like I’m agree your dam right. I’m agree because I have to face my future, happiness, tragedy, watching our grandchildren grow up without Brenda by my side. I have to live the rest of my life urging the presents of My Beloved Brenda. I have to spend every night crying myself to sleep. Everyone’s happiness affects me in the negative way. I feel jealous that I can’t enjoy that any longer.
Life is not fair, death it the only way out. The people who have left this world are the lucky ones. It’s the people left behind that suffer.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name alive.
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.
Thank you
Herb A Krantz
Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp

St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD

Stem Cell Research
Michael J Fox
http://www.michaeljfox.org/
Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Every Day gets harder

Her clothing hangs in my closet. Just a few pieces, the dress she wore at our wedding along with her shoes. A dress she wore at the last wedding we attended together. The wedding was in October she died in December. It was a dress I helped her pick out and a few other articles that she wore on our last cruise in November. Little did we know that it would be the last thing we do together.

Now I sit remembering the good old days but every memory hurts and they all come with tears. All new memories get tied to Brenda. What ever I do she should will be a part of. When I go out with two other couples She should be there. I feel that I am the odd man, the fifth chair.

We could all be talking and joking but I always seem to bring everyone down by talking about Brenda and how I miss her. I try not to but it seems to always end that way.
Brenda would have everyone laughing. We were George burns and Gracie Adams. I miss her laughter and her humor but most of all I miss her love. It was tender along with being intense. I always looked forward in getting in bed with her now I can’t go into the room to sleep.

Every day gets harder to cope with the loss of Brenda but in her death I have learned that she was deeper that I knew. She would give advise to our daughter on raising her children. The reason it’s funny is that Brenda had no children of her own but our daughter told me that she was right on. She help out a lot of people in many ways. What hurts me the most is that our grandchildren will not have Brenda’s wisdom to learn from. She loved them with all her hart and soul and I hope they don’t forget her. Brenda was truly one of a kind.
It was my mother’s birthday and Brenda was not there to make us laugh. All though we all together we all felt Brenda missing absence. I couldn’t be happy for my Mother because the hurt was to great. I feel that it was selfish of me but I just can’t pretend. Brenda is gone and my life will never be the same.


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother , fantastic Grandmother and one hell of a woman you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Help me keep Brenda’s name alive
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.

http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp

St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD

Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

If Only?

I walk the nights from room to room. As I walk out of the room that I sleep in, (her old office), I found a card on a shelf. It read –
I love you in so many ways and for so many reasons…because you know me and understand me like no one else ever could… because you believe in my dreams and care about my feelings…because you make me laugh so hard and smile so often…because you have a way of bringing out the very best in me.
Herb
I love you
In so many ways, and for so many reason, but mostly because you’re my very best friend.

It was signed
I’ll miss you!
I love you
Love me

I don’t remember when she gave me this. Maybe she left it for me that day she went in for that minor surgery. Maybe she knew that she was going to die. She told my sister that she would see at her funeral Friday. She was buried on Friday a week later. I would of never of let her go. If only I would of listen maybe she would be alive today.
I miss you Babe, you were and will always be my soul. I will spend the rest of my life creating a fund to keep you name alive not just for the people who know you but also for everyone. You are a person that should be an example to the world.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name alive.
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you Herb A Krantz
Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp
St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD
Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox
http://www.michaeljfox.org/
Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm