Final good by-Brenda Comnick -12/11/10

I feel my body floating, as the years grow dim. They all said that the pain would get less, so when will that be?
When will I feel like a person again?
Someone who can finally enjoy life and live it to it’s fullest.
When will I start to heal?
Every night I use to walk the halls in fear that this is not dream.
No I walk the halls knowing that it’s not.
My life will never be the same. A part of me will always be missing. My eyes will never have the gleam of happiness. I want to live again but can’t. The pain is to great. I have forgotten you voice, your smile, your laugh and the tenderness of your touch.
I want to reach out and hold you again in my arms. Hold your face in my hands and gently kiss the small of your neck.
I want to hear the laughs that we had together.
I want to be with others and not feel strange that I have no one that I love sitting with me.
You know when you left me that I would fall apart. That I would pull away and you know that it would be for a long while.
Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to die?
Why couldn’t it be me instead of you?
Why does it have to hurt so much?
For three years I have morn for you. Long to be with you.
For three years I forced myself to go and do things that I really didn’t want to.
For three years I sat and cried for you day and night.
I can’t stand the loneness anymore. I need to say good-by my love and really move on.
I will miss you forever and forever you will be my only true love.
2011 must be my year of coming out into the world again.
Good by.

This is dedicated to my one and only Soul mate

Brenda Gomnick Died 12/11/07 Rest in peace my love.

By
Herb A Krantz

No happily every after

Once upon a time there was a young man who was happy go lucky. He lived life every day to the fullest. Then one day he met his love, dancing down the street. It didn't take long for them to fall madly in live and get married.

They both worked hard and played hard. He worked from early morning to late at night. They family had everything except their father-husband there with them. He was trying to make a living for them but as usual he didn't realize that they rather have him. He finally realized what his family wanted. They wanted him around more so he stepped down from his high paying position to a lesser position, a job to spend more time with his family. That position paid less and the family had to do with less. His wife didn't like that. She was use to not working and having anything she wanted.

After twenty years of marriage it finally caught up to them. The arguments when they were together became command place.

One day his daughter look up at him and asked," Why do you and mommy argue all the time, he answered, when we stop arguing it will be time to start worrying because then we won't care what happens to our family. As long as there was something to fight for the marriage would stay together he thought.

That day of reckoning came and after twenty years their family broke up. It was a very sad day for the kids but the parents knew it couldn't go on. That it was better that he left and maybe his wife and the kids would live a calmer life. As most families he became a weekend dad, but he called his kids every night. He wanted to let then know that he loved them very much.

He stay by himself working all day and most of the night in a business he started. He was getting very lonely and prayed to the God above that he would met someone that would totally love for what he was and no for what he can give her. For years he would go out with several different woman and have a meaningless relationships with them. He was never really happy and always was glad to be alone again.

Then one day he met this very charming lady. She had a glare in her eyes a smile in her voice. He knew that she was special when he met her but how special she really was, was a pleasant surprise. She was a unique person, someone who would make everyone who met her feel good to be in her presents. To be around her was to be in front of an angle that was here on earth to spread happiness and joy. Could it be that God had finally answered his prayers? She was way more than he had asked for. He found a meaningful relationship with her that grow into a love that was strong and every lasting. Everyone that met them both could see how very much in love they were. It was a love story that you read in a book or see in the movies. His family and hers fell in love with each other. It was like they were all made for each other. They married and lived very happily but only for a short time.

Once again his hart would be broken. His soul mate died suddenly and he was left along again to morn her death forever. There could be no one to take her place; she was tru
one of a kind. Once again God would take away the reason for living. When she was alive he had a purpose. Now there was nothing. What was sense of looking again, to fall in love, for it to be taken away? There will only be loneliness and despair there will be no happy every after for him.

If Only?

I walk the nights from room to room. As I walk out of the room that I sleep in, (her old office), I found a card on a shelf. It read –
I love you in so many ways and for so many reasons…because you know me and understand me like no one else ever could… because you believe in my dreams and care about my feelings…because you make me laugh so hard and smile so often…because you have a way of bringing out the very best in me.
Herb
I love you
In so many ways, and for so many reason, but mostly because you’re my very best friend.

It was signed
I’ll miss you!
I love you
Love me

I don’t remember when she gave me this. Maybe she left it for me that day she went in for that minor surgery. Maybe she knew that she was going to die. She told my sister that she would see at her funeral Friday. She was buried on Friday a week later. I would of never of let her go. If only I would of listen maybe she would be alive today.
I miss you Babe, you were and will always be my soul. I will spend the rest of my life creating a fund to keep you name alive not just for the people who know you but also for everyone. You are a person that should be an example to the world.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name alive.
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you Herb A Krantz
Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp
St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD
Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox
http://www.michaeljfox.org/
Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Tears fall so easily (I miss you my Love)

I thought that writing about my beloved wife Brenda would help me get over her death.
It hasn’t and never will.
With my eyes open I see her face as she took her last breath. I remember looking at her as her color turned from flesh to yellow. I could see her spirit leave her body.
I knew seven days before they pronounced her death that she would not come back. She had closed her bright eyes for the last time 12/11/07 not 12/19/07.
As I drove her to her death I told her that she would be fine. She come out of her minor operation just fine but it still was the last time she would make people laugh.
The last time I would kiss her goodbye.
The last time I would see her eyes open.
It’s now three months later and the pain is growing day by day. The sleepless night are going into weary days. I have many friends and relatives around me. I talk with them and tell them my feelings but nothing seems to help. The pain and loss is to great. There will be no other like Brenda for the world or me. She was truly a work of art, my dream come true. She was a big part of many persons life and what I lived for.
I have a hole where there use to be hart.
Tears fall so easily. I could be out, sitting home or driving and they start.
My hands shake like I never before. I try to go out and be happy with whom I am with but my thoughts always go to Brenda.
I love my Daughter and grandkids but without Brenda nothing brings me joy. Everyday is the same, day after day.
I try to go back to work but I can’t. I just don’t have the drive I had before. So I look for something different to do but that’s no working so well. I feel that my life is on hold and will never go anywhere.
I miss you Brenda so much that I will never move on.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name aliveBelow are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name. Thank you Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa. http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp

St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD

Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Wishes of happiness..(Happy Birthday Ha!!)

One week later and my birthday is here.
Everyone greets me with wishes of happiness.
I don’t feel very happy as a matter of fact I would of liked to sleep the day away.
Maybe get drunk and not wake up till the day I die.
I can’t see me living without you for the rest of my life.
You were what I lived for.

My life, my everything.
My happiness was through you eyes.
You were bigger than life itself.
You were my soul.
The love of my life.

I roam the lonely halls every night.
I have to drink myself to sleep to rest every night.
I sit and look at your picture. Looking into your eyes.
Eyes that were so full of life now are dim.

I will never see your bright eyes again or hear your laugh.
If only you knew how you touched my life and others.
This spot you filled will never be taken by anyone.

This will be the last artical I write about my beloved wife Brenda for a while. I have said everything I can say about her and the love we knew.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds to in the name of Brenda G. Gomnick
Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm