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Monday, March 31, 2008

Tears fall so easily (I miss you my Love)


I thought that writing about my beloved wife Brenda would help me get over her death.
It hasn’t and never will.
With my eyes open I see her face as she took her last breath. I remember looking at her as her color turned from flesh to yellow. I could see her spirit leave her body.
I knew seven days before they pronounced her death that she would not come back. She had closed her bright eyes for the last time 12/11/07 not 12/19/07.
As I drove her to her death I told her that she would be fine. She come out of her minor operation just fine but it still was the last time she would make people laugh.
The last time I would kiss her goodbye.
The last time I would see her eyes open.
It’s now three months later and the pain is growing day by day. The sleepless night are going into weary days. I have many friends and relatives around me. I talk with them and tell them my feelings but nothing seems to help. The pain and loss is to great. There will be no other like Brenda for the world or me. She was truly a work of art, my dream come true. She was a big part of many persons life and what I lived for.
I have a hole where there use to be hart.
Tears fall so easily. I could be out, sitting home or driving and they start.
My hands shake like I never before. I try to go out and be happy with whom I am with but my thoughts always go to Brenda.
I love my Daughter and grandkids but without Brenda nothing brings me joy. Everyday is the same, day after day.
I try to go back to work but I can’t. I just don’t have the drive I had before. So I look for something different to do but that’s no working so well. I feel that my life is on hold and will never go anywhere.
I miss you Brenda so much that I will never move on.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name aliveBelow are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name. Thank you Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia


St Jude



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox


Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Wishes of happiness..(Happy Birthday Ha!!)


One week later and my birthday is here.
Everyone greets me with wishes of happiness.
I don’t feel very happy as a matter of fact I would of liked to sleep the day away.
Maybe get drunk and not wake up till the day I die.
I can’t see me living without you for the rest of my life.
You were what I lived for.

My life, my everything.
My happiness was through you eyes.
You were bigger than life itself.
You were my soul.
The love of my life.

I roam the lonely halls every night.
I have to drink myself to sleep to rest every night.
I sit and look at your picture. Looking into your eyes.
Eyes that were so full of life now are dim.

I will never see your bright eyes again or hear your laugh.
If only you knew how you touched my life and others.
This spot you filled will never be taken by anyone.

This will be the last artical I write about my beloved wife Brenda for a while. I have said everything I can say about her and the love we knew.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds to in the name of Brenda G. Gomnick
Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Monday, March 10, 2008

My Bright Eyes



The days grow longer.
The nights grow emptier.
My heart grows sadder not for me but for our grandchildren.
I’m afraid they will forget you especially our 18 month old.
They will never hear your laughter or see you kind smiling face again.
You will no longer be there to give them their macaroni and cheese.
Change the 18-month-old diapers.
Be there when our 3-year old was toilet trained which you helped start.
All these things that the kids will miss.

The things that you could teach them.
The time you took to read to them on the couch.
The laughter you spread to all around you.

We will all miss your innocent humor.
The way you made everyone feel good about themselves

I will miss all this plus more.
The time we spent together alone, just laughing and fooling around.
I will miss every night, kissing and hugging you good night.
You sitting at the computer playing games while I would tickle you.
Looking in your bright eyes and seeing your perfect soul.
I will miss a lot in life.
My life will never be the same.
I will be a lonely soul who will wonder through life for as long as I live.


Love Herb


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Thursday, March 6, 2008

It was supposed to be a Happy Birthday Brenda


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Today was the day you were born instead you not here.
We were supposed to celebrate instead I am mourning your death.
March was the month of our birth now I will remember it for your death.
This was a day for laughter and gifts and looking forward to next year. All that has ended with your death.

There will be no more laughter.
No happiness.
No Hope.
Just sadness and despair.
Loneliness and want for the old days when you were here.

I will long for your laugh and the warmth of your arms around me.
I will never be able to look into your eyes again and see the warmth there.
Nothing will every be the same.
I miss so, the hurt unbearable.


Happy birthday my love where ever you are.


Love Herb


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm







Wednesday, March 5, 2008

bite-by-bite I'm losing you


Slowly, bite-by-bite the fiscal things are leaving.
I feel that I am losing you all over again.
But to move on I’m told this must happen.

All that that’s leaving can never take the memories of you away.
That’s all I have left. Sometimes it’s not enough and the hurt and loneliness becomes to over bearing.
For the rest of my life this is what I have to look forward to for no one will every replace you.
You were my dream come true and now that dream has ended.
My life once again will be lonely. This time I will never dream again.
Our love was once in a lifetime.
A love that will last through out time and eternity.

You were a special woman.
A woman like no other.
A woman that no other could live up to.

Little did you know how much you were love, not just by me but by everyone who knows you.
You were a unique person.
One of a kind.

You made everyone happy and feel good about themselves. That takes a special takes a special person.
You were special in many ways. I will morn you for the rest of my life.
I will love you for every.



Love Herb


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm