Final good by-Brenda Comnick -12/11/10

I feel my body floating, as the years grow dim. They all said that the pain would get less, so when will that be?
When will I feel like a person again?
Someone who can finally enjoy life and live it to it’s fullest.
When will I start to heal?
Every night I use to walk the halls in fear that this is not dream.
No I walk the halls knowing that it’s not.
My life will never be the same. A part of me will always be missing. My eyes will never have the gleam of happiness. I want to live again but can’t. The pain is to great. I have forgotten you voice, your smile, your laugh and the tenderness of your touch.
I want to reach out and hold you again in my arms. Hold your face in my hands and gently kiss the small of your neck.
I want to hear the laughs that we had together.
I want to be with others and not feel strange that I have no one that I love sitting with me.
You know when you left me that I would fall apart. That I would pull away and you know that it would be for a long while.
Why did you have to go?
Why did you have to die?
Why couldn’t it be me instead of you?
Why does it have to hurt so much?
For three years I have morn for you. Long to be with you.
For three years I forced myself to go and do things that I really didn’t want to.
For three years I sat and cried for you day and night.
I can’t stand the loneness anymore. I need to say good-by my love and really move on.
I will miss you forever and forever you will be my only true love.
2011 must be my year of coming out into the world again.
Good by.

This is dedicated to my one and only Soul mate

Brenda Gomnick Died 12/11/07 Rest in peace my love.

By
Herb A Krantz

To what every the future brings

To what every the future brings

I can share my love but I can’t give you me. My soul has been ripped from my body, there is more soul left to give. I will walk this earth for the rest of my life never being able to enjoy another’s love as I have with you my love.
I will never be able to commit to anyone but hopefully be able to share some joy and some laughter. Deep love will never be mine again. I am a damaged goods that can never be repaired.
No one could ever follow in my true love’s foot steeps. She has spoiled me. Her laughter

haunts my memory.
I am changing my life and lifestyle and trying to move on. My love you will always be a part of my life no matter witch direction it goes. I will love you with all my hart. You are a part of me that will live on till the day I die.
I have learned many things from you and hopefully I will be able to live as you did by influencing people and making them laugh at themselves and each other. Being a positive influence by making them happy.
In your memory I will become a better person and serve our family and friends with all the respect and gratitude they deserve.
I am headed into this journey without you but I can feel your hand in mine. Give me strength my dears love because it is time to let you go and move on to what every the future brings.

Dedicated to Brenda G Gomnick
Herb A Krantz

The Jewish New Year (Rosh Hashanah) 2008

The Jewish New Year (Rosh Hashanah) 2008

I have lost my identity and the meaning for living. As I look back at last year we were celebrating my rebirth from the dead. Not only was I not suppose to leave the hospital but I was not given much chance afterward. Brenda and all the family gave thanks to god for writing me in the book of life.
We never though that Brenda would not be included in the book of life with me. I’m here and she is gone. God played a bad joke on all that loved her and knew. He took the wrong person and know we are all left to suffer.
My life will never be the same. The fulfillment I felt in life with Brenda will never be again with anyone else. I am a shell of what I use to be. Brenda knew that this would happen. She told me two weeks before she died.
I don’t look forward to the years to come. My eyes can’t see pass today. I have no plan for the future just keep looking back at the passed. I have decided that I will never marry again; it would not be fair to hold that woman up to the height of Brenda’s love. Therefore I will walk the reminder of my life in memories of what I had and lost In Brenda’s death.



Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother, fantastic Grandmother and one hell of a woman, you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name aliveBelow are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name. Thank you Herb A Krantz
Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp
St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD

Stem Cell Research
Michael J Fox
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Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Finial Goodbye to Brenda Gomnick

My life is going on but I feel like Brenda’s is final coming to its finality. Once the monument is in place and all her friends and family say goodbye that’s it.
That day-that week will be a roughest week for me. It will be a time in my life that I will feel my loneliness the most. I will never forget her. My love for her will grow even in her demise. She was and always will be my one and only true love.
I know that I must move on but Brenda will be in my hart and soul and I will love her till the day I die.
Even though I can’t hold her or hear her laugh any longer I will hold my memories of Brenda very close to my hart. She will be a part of me wherever my journey leads.
This is a journey I thought I would never have to take alone. I thought that we would both live to a ripe old age or that I would go first.
Brenda was my support my partner in life and love. We lived for each other, now there is no one to live for. I have my friends and family along with my grandchildren but it’s not the same as having Brenda. She was the light in my life. The reason for me living. I will remember her child like audited on life. The way things came out of her mouth that made everyone laugh.
When Brenda was around no one sat with a long face. She would have you feeling good about being around her. Brenda was magical in every way.
Brenda was an angle who walked the earth we us for a moment in time, now I will have to let her go. I thank you for the time you have given me to enjoy you.

Until we meet again my angel.

Rest in peace my bright eyes.

This will be my last article about Brenda and myself.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother, a woman of great worth to all and a fantastic Grandmother. You are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Help me keep Brenda’s name alive.
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp

St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD

Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox
http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Second toughest week

This was the second toughest week I have faced since Brenda’s death. It was our sixth anniversary and only I was here to celebrate it. Luckily I face that day with a loved on by my side. The rest of the week was hard especially at night.
I am going away this weekend to get away from here for two days. I want to clear my head for too much is happening and in a few more weeks I will face the most difficult day since Brenda passed away, her unveiling. I can never put her death behind me but I feel I have to move on. If not know maybe never.
Brenda will be in my hart forever and no one will ever replace her. She was and always will be a very special person to everyone and me who knew her. Every night I pine for her as tears fall down my face. These tears will fall till the day I die. Our love for each other will never be duplicated. We had a true love affair. A deep love that was still growing. I have lost my hart, soul and happiness, no one will replace that.
I must face the rest of my life without Brenda all I have is her memories. That’s not enough for me, I would really like to join her but that’s not going to be. So step-by-step I take trying to start over again. Hopefully I do it right.
Even though I feel that I am getting stronger I still need the love and support of my family and friends. I love and thank you all but please don’t forget me.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother, a woman of great worth to all and a fantastic Grandmother. You are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Rest in peace my bright eyes.

Help me keep Brenda’s name alive.
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp

St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD

Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox
http://www.michaeljfox.org/
Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Every Day gets harder

Her clothing hangs in my closet. Just a few pieces, the dress she wore at our wedding along with her shoes. A dress she wore at the last wedding we attended together. The wedding was in October she died in December. It was a dress I helped her pick out and a few other articles that she wore on our last cruise in November. Little did we know that it would be the last thing we do together.

Now I sit remembering the good old days but every memory hurts and they all come with tears. All new memories get tied to Brenda. What ever I do she should will be a part of. When I go out with two other couples She should be there. I feel that I am the odd man, the fifth chair.

We could all be talking and joking but I always seem to bring everyone down by talking about Brenda and how I miss her. I try not to but it seems to always end that way.
Brenda would have everyone laughing. We were George burns and Gracie Adams. I miss her laughter and her humor but most of all I miss her love. It was tender along with being intense. I always looked forward in getting in bed with her now I can’t go into the room to sleep.

Every day gets harder to cope with the loss of Brenda but in her death I have learned that she was deeper that I knew. She would give advise to our daughter on raising her children. The reason it’s funny is that Brenda had no children of her own but our daughter told me that she was right on. She help out a lot of people in many ways. What hurts me the most is that our grandchildren will not have Brenda’s wisdom to learn from. She loved them with all her hart and soul and I hope they don’t forget her. Brenda was truly one of a kind.
It was my mother’s birthday and Brenda was not there to make us laugh. All though we all together we all felt Brenda missing absence. I couldn’t be happy for my Mother because the hurt was to great. I feel that it was selfish of me but I just can’t pretend. Brenda is gone and my life will never be the same.


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother , fantastic Grandmother and one hell of a woman you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Help me keep Brenda’s name alive
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.

http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp

St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD

Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

If Only?

I walk the nights from room to room. As I walk out of the room that I sleep in, (her old office), I found a card on a shelf. It read –
I love you in so many ways and for so many reasons…because you know me and understand me like no one else ever could… because you believe in my dreams and care about my feelings…because you make me laugh so hard and smile so often…because you have a way of bringing out the very best in me.
Herb
I love you
In so many ways, and for so many reason, but mostly because you’re my very best friend.

It was signed
I’ll miss you!
I love you
Love me

I don’t remember when she gave me this. Maybe she left it for me that day she went in for that minor surgery. Maybe she knew that she was going to die. She told my sister that she would see at her funeral Friday. She was buried on Friday a week later. I would of never of let her go. If only I would of listen maybe she would be alive today.
I miss you Babe, you were and will always be my soul. I will spend the rest of my life creating a fund to keep you name alive not just for the people who know you but also for everyone. You are a person that should be an example to the world.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.
Help me keep Brenda’s name alive.
Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you Herb A Krantz
Children's Hospital of Philadelphia
Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp
St Jude
http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jspvgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD
Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox
http://www.michaeljfox.org/
Christopher reeve http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Wishes of happiness..(Happy Birthday Ha!!)

One week later and my birthday is here.
Everyone greets me with wishes of happiness.
I don’t feel very happy as a matter of fact I would of liked to sleep the day away.
Maybe get drunk and not wake up till the day I die.
I can’t see me living without you for the rest of my life.
You were what I lived for.

My life, my everything.
My happiness was through you eyes.
You were bigger than life itself.
You were my soul.
The love of my life.

I roam the lonely halls every night.
I have to drink myself to sleep to rest every night.
I sit and look at your picture. Looking into your eyes.
Eyes that were so full of life now are dim.

I will never see your bright eyes again or hear your laugh.
If only you knew how you touched my life and others.
This spot you filled will never be taken by anyone.

This will be the last artical I write about my beloved wife Brenda for a while. I have said everything I can say about her and the love we knew.

Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds to in the name of Brenda G. Gomnick
Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm

Letter to Brenda my beloved wife

When I told you that you had spoiled me and that no other woman could take your place, it was the truth. No one could ever make me feel the way you did!

No one could make me laugh the way you did.
No one could love me like you.
No one could fill my life with such joy.
No one could accept me with all my faults.

I could never love anyone as I loved you.
You were my soul mate.
My one and only extra special love.
A love you find once in a lifetime.
A love most people only could hope to find.
A true romance.
Two people becoming one.

As the days grow longer since your passing, my life grows sadder.
Everyday I miss your more and more.
Ever night I cry myself to sleep.
I curse every morning that I awake.
My life is empty with no joy and nothing to look forward to.

I have a lot of friends and family around me but it doesn’t mean anything without you by my side.
You were my happiness my reason for living.
My dreams die with you.
My hopes for the future were with you.
Everything I did was for you, now they mean nothing.

Someone asked me who am I?
I couldn’t answer that question because I am nothing without you.
I have no Identity.
I miss and will always love you till the day I die.

Love Herb


Brenda G Gomnick wife, mother and fantastic Grandmother you are greatly missed already and your memory will live on forever.

Below are links that you can donate funds in Brenda's name.

Thank you

Herb A Krantz

Children's Hospital of Philadelphia

Chop Hospital Phila Pa.
http://www.chop.edu/consumer/index.jsp


St Jude

http://www.stjude.org/stjude/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f2bfab46cb118010VgnVCM1000000e2015acRCRD



Stem Cell Research

Michael J Fox

http://www.michaeljfox.org/

Christopher reeve

http://www.christopherreeve.org/site/c.geIMLPOpGjF/b.899265/k.CC03/Home.htm