My grief

My grief.

I wonder through the darkness with my eyes held shut. A mask covers my face, the path I walk I cannot see. My hart feels nothing.
There is no one to feel my grief, to share my lost. I am along with my tears. The hurt overcomes me at times, so much I cannot move. The lost of my love has taken the feeling of love from me. I don’t know if I could every offer it again.
Will I ever feel love again?
Will I ever be able to give love?
Is there happiness in my future?
Will I ever need others in my life?
I am to a point in my life that I have to make a design on how to guild it.
Life is so hard as is, but to get past a death of a person who has made such a difference in your life makes it harder.
She was a ray of sunshine whenever she entered a room.
She was a person that made people laugh.
She made everyone feel good about themselves.
She made me come alive.
She was a gift to all that knew her.
I feel it maybe time to continue on with whatever life I have left but I don’t know if I can. I think to myself I’m doing well but then I get hit with rage and sadness.
Is it time I move on?
Is it right to continue down that road without her?
I don’t know what lay’s ahead but I do know I can’t give what I did before. This hurt is to deep to ever go through it again.
I must welcome the dark and say good-by to the happiness I once knew.


Dedicated to Brenda G. Gomnick.


Herb A Krantz

To what every the future brings

To what every the future brings

I can share my love but I can’t give you me. My soul has been ripped from my body, there is more soul left to give. I will walk this earth for the rest of my life never being able to enjoy another’s love as I have with you my love.
I will never be able to commit to anyone but hopefully be able to share some joy and some laughter. Deep love will never be mine again. I am a damaged goods that can never be repaired.
No one could ever follow in my true love’s foot steeps. She has spoiled me. Her laughter

haunts my memory.
I am changing my life and lifestyle and trying to move on. My love you will always be a part of my life no matter witch direction it goes. I will love you with all my hart. You are a part of me that will live on till the day I die.
I have learned many things from you and hopefully I will be able to live as you did by influencing people and making them laugh at themselves and each other. Being a positive influence by making them happy.
In your memory I will become a better person and serve our family and friends with all the respect and gratitude they deserve.
I am headed into this journey without you but I can feel your hand in mine. Give me strength my dears love because it is time to let you go and move on to what every the future brings.

Dedicated to Brenda G Gomnick
Herb A Krantz